I really hate having to make hard decisions. Really, I do.. SHIT!@#!*!!!
Well, D & I are planning on getting married within the next year or less. Ever since I was a little girl I've always dreamt of having a big, beautiful blowout wedding with all of my friends and family there. Tons of flowers, food, great music and blah, blah, blah! Well.. I've grown up and snapped into reality and , well, I just don't see that happening as I planned it. Don't get me wrong, I would still absolutely LOVE to have that sort of wedding but HELLO! We're broke and it's just not happening, lol.
We've been talking about having a small wedding or just going off somewhere and getting married. Now, I wouldn't mind one bit going off somewhere and just doing it BUT I definitely want my daughter there and, no matter what, I definitely want my Dad and Stepdad to walk me down what ever aisle I walk down. That's a must for me among everything else. Also, D said that he definitely wants his parents to be there too. So, basically, if we decide to go off somewhere [ by this I mean Vegas or some sort of island ] and get married then we'd have to pay for everyone's way there and, BAHAHA, that's totally not happening. Yet, if we do it here it'd still be quite a bit of money. I really don't think I'm making any sense of this, huh?
Case in point, we don't have any money but I really want a decent wedding. I don't know.. maybe I'm just stressing myself about this more than I should be. Sometime in the near future though I'm going to talk to a travel agent and see about prices of different places and just get an idea. We've still got a lot of talking to do about this crap too. I just think things to death sometimes. Ugh.